fear most

I can't help myself wondering what will be another 10 years. Will I be success as I wished or turn out to be empty with NO SUCCESS in life.

HONESTLY, if you asked me what I fear most;;

SINCERELY, I'll answered

I'm afraid if another 5 to 10 years I'm not being what I want which is to be success with my personal and life career. It would be so devastating if it turns out to be empty and shallow life. I want to feel things, new things and travel around the world with a $$$$$ in my pocket. I want to be a good daughter and a good sister. I want to give them money and happiness&&& don't forgot I also want to change to be a good muslim and upgrating myself to be limited edition Nraisha JS HAHAHA

how IF this model 20-Nraisha JS will never change? HOW if there is no more chapters?

I'll DIE you know! LIFE is about changing, so live without changing is like a SUICIDE to me.

So the first step to make my life more useful is by praying, a sufficient effort and just DO IT without complicate things.

SOMEHOW I think, being realistic and optimistic isn't enough. Life is rough and tough. Sometimes we need to be cruel to be kind and push without being pulled. If we can keep real in our mind and push all the craps all out of you and accepts we CAN'T fly without wings.

Then I must say we'll be just fine though.