The Best Thing I Never Had

I have knowing myself for a long time, and I aware how strong care I have to my heart. I avoid everything that can torch my heart, for example - love relationship. why? From my point of view, guys are hard to read, they are complicated species, don't know what they want and desire. For that, i always guard my heart not to be spare by wrong guy. 

In my story,

There is one guy who very 'focus' of wanting me. Almost 4 years or more pursuing me as he claimed that 'I'm the one' :) and after high consideration I accept the guy proposal because of 1 thing - I trust his intention. 

plus.. My small mind said, "give it a try/ why not/ what if" urghhh MiX feelings. But what the hell right? I'm unemployed, plenty of time to spare so yeap.. why not..  HAHA  LOL

So yeah, the chapter is on!
For some time, the fairytale goes accordingly, I give my sincerity and full acceptance. We dated, we share things. Good memory, bad memory, sweet memory, silly.. small fights. Normal relationship i must say.. and yeah I'm quite good you know..

But yes, for every normal relationships has its own down point.. for my story, its not only down point nut its a tsunami! HAHA it strikes unmercifully and nothing was left but only the 'truth'..

The TRUTH where I know what he did behind my back.. 
The TRUTH of he is not capable of being honest and loyal,
The TRUTH of his weakness and his loneliness..
The TRUTH that he is just a boy.. Only a boy..

Well, what he did is not unique, is not shocking, it's typical problem guys have. what do i mean is the desire to be unfaithful, BUT the most important are not knowing what they really want and need..
 

HAHA back to my story, as I know what he did, Wallllaaaaaa.. i confronted him, shove the proof on his face, but still the 'i don't know what you mean' story goes, all the drama and all the denial goes on with typical reaction 'NO! I didn't do it' but yeah it takes some effort to end his denial (drama). HAHA. Sigh -.-'    I wonder how a person can tell a lie at that amount. GOSH, May Allah help him.

But that doesn't matter actually, How I see him now as a total lost category. I can still be your friend although 'us' is off. But what really make me see you as a total lost is how you can be such douchebag and be a freak denial clown! HELLO! I know what you did, just man up and say sorry! but yeah you are to pussy to said it, for that you are total lost to me. A Total Lost

What matter is the lesson i get from this experience. I can see what are the very important aspect to handle love relationship.

First! the most important aspect in relationship is to love ourselves much much much more. As Islam, there are limits and boundary between women and a men. If you follow Allah's rule, InsyaALLAH You won't affected by his doing. You know that you still have you in one piece and you can walk through the 'exit door' with smile and no regret.

Secondly! is Nawaitu, our intention. To have a good, sincere and honest Nawaitu and relationship will guard you, Allah always see you and will always protect you.

In my relationship, one thing for sure I gave my 100% trust on him and I'm very sincere him. Well, until now I never regret of trusting him, because I know my intention is pure and for that I know Allah is there to help me. So thank you to my creator for the Tsunami, and for this I have this new mind set -

When you have trust on Allah's power, you can go any path in your life with doubtless, If its right for you then it is the truth, If its wrong then Allah will show you the fault.

InsyaALLAH.

Happy Ramadhan

SWIMMING CLASS

Well this is my first time posting regarding swimming class. Yeah I am 4 years or more experience in this field. Ive been teaching for quite long at UITM, Shah Alam as a swimming instructor and Lifeguard, and do part time as assistant Instructor at MMU Cyberjaya.
At early stage, i see this as opportunity to earn some pocket money to support my studies. So i invest some money to gain Medallion Certificate (qualified lifeguard) and upgraded to Swimming Instructor.  But with time, I see this as my secrecy passion, indulge my nerve everytime I see my students progress and its addictive. sigh -.-"
So yeah, do what makes you happy is the purpose right? may my nawaitu of teaching will remain it state forever. grrrr

and FYI,

For those who wants to learn how to swim, tahu berenang or don't know how to swim can contact me.
I'm okay, COOL and very passion Instructor EVER!

1) Class for Ladies Muslimah : Sri Siantan Swimming Pool at Selayang. 

2) Kids, Adults, perempuan, lelaki or in between
      - at SRI SIANTAN SWIMMING POOL/at your place also can.

3) Afraid of water or lack of confidence, no problem. We can solve it together.


Contact details:

nraisha.js@gmail.com
+60133654711 (Just whatsapp me)

us is real.

Are you for real
like how i feel
can we share a love
to last forever
and if so
let me know

Song:

(Chorus)
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more


Baby you told me that you loved me and you'd never leave my side
to the bitter end, through the thick and thin
you promised me baby that you wasn't goin anywhere
baby keep it real, let me know just how you feel

(Chorus)
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

(Chorus)

I can't explain the way you made me feel, everytime that you told me that you
loved me
and you know you did, too many times
just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
thats when you came along, and showed me happiness
baby you are the best, i think you're different from the rest
and i really love ya

(Chorus)
Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
(you gotta)
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
(do you really love me)
this feelin that we feel
(do you really care)
tell me that its real
(you promised that you'd never leave my side)
don't let love come just, to pass us by
(you promised that you'd always be there)
Try, is all we have to do
(is all we have to do)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
(i'll be there for you)
this feelin that we feel
(you be there for me, sweetheart)
tell me that its real
(i thought that we were meant to be, for eternity, thought you loved me baby)
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
(mama told me told me so, boy you just don't know, anything about love)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
(and you and i were meant to be, and you would know, i was sure by the end of
this song)

p/s: i know now, what we have is real.

pulau kecil :)

Pulau Perhentian, pulau kecil.
3 days 2 night- Among Lifeguard UiTM, and 2 UIA students

22nd July til 24th July 2011

this getaway really meant something to me, bittersweet memories.

:) HEY you know what HAHA

so much sayang..

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

p/s: I will keep my promise, you'll see..

The Legendary Areena :)

muka je legend minah ni, tp hati mcm tasek perdana haha

very interesting person && its quite fun to be her friend.

very relax and rugged friendship, she is a good listener

err i mean she listen to every word i said until she fell asleep but then that won't bother me as i continuing bed time story to myself until i fell to deep sleep beside her -.-" HAHA

OUH for now what i know about her, she's very ambitious, big fan of AUDI or any superbike and she have this fantasy of having a Doctor Title, for me it's possible and what else ye, OH she love bright colours, especially orange, yellow, white, errr byk lagi la kan. She Love Hockey, striker tu -.-" & now basketball plak. ++ love kids, sunbathing & heart her cats..

again.. muka je legend, tak makan pedas -.-" HAHA

Oh man, if she read this, i'll have Sizzling Steak as my last meal please! hee hee

We have similar fav drinks, which is Limau Ice/Ice Lemon Tea under the tree over the sun okay fine merepek balik -.-''

1 thing I know she care about me, so do I. Still new, but what the hell right :)

HEY Areena, lets keep this real aite..mmuahss!

my cat

gucci, 3 years Old Now.

persian, half flat face, white+cream colour and Now eats 3 times per day.

breakfast, evening and night.

He look exactly like his dad. A good listener, less talk more sleep -.-'' like Cold places, Very Discipline cat and well behave.

my only cat. Oh Gucci!

muahs, xoxo.

:)

Old picture, miss qila masam tu, && I miss KL.

Ones upon a time..

HAHA my mum worked at BMG I think (Industry Music) as PR.

last2 kena paksa photoshoot mase kecik2 -.-'' I miss my hair;;

belakon pun pena kowt -.-'' hish I really don't like it;;

new home, new beginning :)

my new home. 50% siap!

terselit plak; ucu amik

sofa tade, g anta tuka kusyen sgala, nmpk kosong plak.

uncle fauzi btol kan langsir

some view. 13th floor maa!

me n ucu -.-''

this's ucu section

uncle black and mama

awal3 tdo kat depan suma. silap la ayan tdo mcm ni,

sepupu ; ekin

wall of lame ayan -.-''

acik masam :)

swimming pool :) first time swim dulu kat sni la hishhh

entah -.-''

new chapter. new beginning. my home.